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Trying to look good for someone serves what purpose? To impress? To create false impressions? When we primp before going out, put on makeup, or that extra piece of jewelry, who is it really for? Do people want to see us like that—for something we really aren’t? If we aren’t confident in looking the way that is expected of us, does it really make a difference at all? Why is it expected to begin with? Who created these standards?

There is no purpose to be anything other than you for anybody else. Is it not considered lying to lead them to think you are something other than that? Even the people you are most comfortable with should understand and be appreciative for who you really are. Having to look a certain way for the sake of friends…..doesn’t make sense really. Surely those that love you, do so because they know you without all of those things. And that’s what matters to them, right? I’d hope so.

There are reasons as to why I dislike dressing up, putting on makeup, and wearing anything fancier than my hemp necklace. It’s not who I am, and when I’ve done any of those things in the past, it feels like I’m hiding—like no one can actually see me because I’m in costume. Those things make me feel like I am less sure of myself, as if I need them to draw attention to me and feign confidence. That’s not how I am at all. I’ve been told, “a little *insert makeup product here* would only enhance how pretty your eyes are,” or “, that would draw attention to your *insert part of body*, which I think is really cute.” If something is already pretty, why not let the other natural features that I have do their job to “enhance” it? Is it really necessary to put some synthetic thing on my face to make it look better? Because that gives me the impression that I’m not good enough as I am and if that’s the case then screw you all. Same goes for clothes. If my figure is “cute” already, clearly you noticed it and I don’t need to try any harder to grab someone else’s attention. If that’s what you think it takes, clearly men of your standards are really shallow and like high maintenance girls. If no one can accept me for the way I am, then I’d rather die alone.

I’ll go the extra mile for some people; however I won’t do it by being fake. I am not Barbie by any means. There are better ways to impress people, but they all come naturally. If you aren’t capable of doing it, then you just weren’t meant to reproduce.